What frustrates you more about god? What he does or doesn't do?

CY answer me this. God is not our servant but he is supposed to be our father, but wouldn't a father want to try and keep a child's love instead of letting it slip away from him? I am not theist or atheist as i acknowledge that God exists but i refuse to follow him as he clearly isn't everything that people and the bible make him out to be. i can reinforce this statement as God is not all loving but infact a racist and also phobic as he prefers the jews over any other type of religion or person, and clearly holds a strong stance against gay people. He doesn't love all his children, as he has clearly abandoned these children simply for being different. So if God does things at his own pace, is it any wonder that religion is decreasing and atheism is on the increase. If i were God, i'd be desperately trying to make people acknowledge me as my reputations' about to go out the window. But as he isn't doing anything, he clearly isn't bothered and musn't love his children. I am on the atheists side ith a different view, so please try and prove me wrong.